no man is an island.

that i believe wholeheartedly, and while i may hide away in my room, away from the rest of the world at times, well ok most of the time. i've never been good at being self-sufficient. i can stand on my own, without a doubt. but after awhile, it just gets too tiring, and i feel like i'm going to collapse. that's when i turn to my friends. who have stood by me all these years, with love, faith and trust. haha. and sometimes nothing can compare to that. they've seen me at my highest and lowest. been there for everything no matter how far apart we might be. and now, all i need is that.

that and some peace.

i've made up my mind. i think the fact that i made the first decision, has given me the strength to figure out the rest. and while i've figured it out, it doesn't mean its less painful. but i hope i can pull through (:

seeing chong's post about m&a. made me so so happy (((: all we wanted to with m&a was to leave an impact on people, so give them insight to something, to plant the seed of thoughts. and to see it happen is amazing. haha. plus she said she was so proud of me just made me beam like a crazy idiot for super long. hahaha.

i hope i did all of you proud (: i'll miss you guys. so much. we were almost like a dysfunctional family. haha. i hope all this can happen again. but i know its not goodbye. it'll never be goodbye (: life moves in circles. when i thought i wouldn't ever see some ppl again, they will somehow find a way to reappear in your life if its meant to be. grins.

i wish you happiness. more than anything else.

i'm off to seek my own happiness again. to find the things that make me smile, laugh, cry and scream. haha. i've been feeling incredibly emotionally stunted. like a cork has stopped my emotions from coming out, and i need to pull it out. i want my whole range of extreme emotions back. rather than this empty moroseness i've been feeling.

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